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Ah puh dah

w n o n y a a.

everything, happens for a reason.

things fall apart.

fully blown away by what He has been showing me.

i love my Lord

slowly i realize all the hardship i went through this year. He has been faithful and has shown me his kind and good heart. praise the Lord.

acceptin the person as who they are

fear and death is a lie.

fear, which is generated by our past pains such as abadonment, cheating, lies shown in tvs. we learn whatmighthappen through them, but its all in your head(our brains). we are like animals. animals learn not to eat certain things and void certain animals because they “learn” (with brains) that those canhurtus and are dangerous. us too like animals learn from our memories and experiences. so when someone hurt us, we stop trusting otherswithout even knowingthat the pain has stopped us from trusting others.

ill give few examples. we ALL know that dogs are nice and they are innocent, we have power over them. but why do some adults fear dogs? hate dogs? because when they were little, they had an experience of dogs cuddling with them but to them it was scary because they were small. similarly, fear is something we generate in our brain. to overcome it, we have to face it. like batman. he was scared of bats but he was only able to overcome it by facing it and realized( with hisbrain)that he has power over them.

similarly, pastor matt gave us a good example. he exemplified that satans are magnified like rats magnified by the light and its shadows are shown big on the wall. but when we go closer to him , he is nothing but a small rat.

another example is matrix. in matrix, leo lived in a world he often questioned is this all there is to the world? isn’t there more to it ( such as truth)? and he was correct. there is another world or another truth behind this fallen world. this world is full of lies and truth has been covered behind it because of the lies.

think how death and fear are related like this. when leo was given two choices. a red and a blue pill. a red pill would lead to kill himself but to see the truth afterwards, but the blue pill was to erase his memory and go back to his own state. but taking that risk of taking a red pill must’ve been very frighting because leo didn’t know any of those guys. how could he have trusted them? i’m sure if we were given that choice, we would reject because we would be like thats crazy. why would i trust them? however, leo looked over his fear or took the chance to overcome it and took the pill. he fainted right away. i’m sure at THAT moment, he thought wow how stupid am i for believeing such strangers. afterwards he woke up, he was in another world. the true world. similarly, his risk in taking that chance and his fainting is like our death. we are hurt for a second, but next when we open our eyes, we’ll be at home. in the true world.

Great I am - phillips craig and dean. observe the lyrics and soak it in.

God, our lord, the Great I AM, told us not to lean in our own understanding. when we LISTEN and FOLLOW the fear and the voices in our head, we are trapped by our own thoughts. we are learning in our OWN understanding. we don’t go forward because the lies in our heads are blocking us so we are constantly in a cage and thats exactly what satan wants to do. but when we listen and follow His word, which are the TRUTH and the LIGHT, we will overcome the lies. and step over the fears.

like a kid afraid of getting into the water. in his own mind, he thinks water is the most scariest thing on earth. but to his parents, water is nothing. but when the kid overcomes the fear and dunks in, he realizes water is nothing but simply water.

what can i do? but to offer this heart to you o God